My Shadow, the truth and my heart


I am fading into the grim drive
the crash the sell and the innocent shallow
heart blaze road in my chest
like some damn fool open and lost to the moon
all this open water driven into the sea
the air the sky the branch and me

roots for sound
the computer headache drivel bomb
pushing ahead, looking
broken loves and dead fathers and words that tumble out
from thin black books of colour
addictive breath
the skin aches, the touch is gone,
the bones are all hollow and bruised

and still sunlight pours out of me
pushing against this dying light infection
and still the fire burns to start again
to be union
to be loved

such shallow fools we are I am
I am no master
no guru no genius
I am not enlightened
and if I was I would throw It all away
for the love of a woman

broken scale blues
you can weigh my feather
ancient rocks of the surf and heat
my heart lies here on your sunlit face
with the gulls and the eagle shit
with my tears and longing
with the beauty and possibility
of life