Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Spiral




The mystery appears to have been settled for now
The cold is speckled and the fire has been burning all day
The silence and quiet and persistent drone create a wall of light for
impenetrable infinite space & judgement asleep in the arm of the sea


To build ones house upon the rock in splendid isolation &
meet out the measure of a year without the knowledge of human time
To sleep in the grass and wait for the cloud to pass
the light to change a day
empty mind of nothing I accept thee


Somewhere far away from this quiet city lies a big place
where the desert air is soft and tinkles with a broken mouse skull
and the night has no eyes staring at the blue glow of the little screens
The new scrolls without weight or substance, text of the hollow man


Now nothing made sense again and it was clear and alive and possible
The blue sky waved out into the hills of hard land and the wind caught
a child's sign stuck in sagebrush
"Please come to peace", it said to the bugs scattered in the dust &
a hawk perched on the edge of the red leather tree
watching the day make no mistakes


The writer was a cliche and repeated himself endlessly but so what
he said to the stones that held the air
and the cold cracked throat of sharp edges
caves, crevices, shadows and draws breaking the land
into a broken old sidewalk &
what wasn't visible always seemed to speak loudest
threatening with quiet contained violence


Fear prickled electric in the cold dead air
and pink dots flittered across his vision
King of the mystics, at war with no one
all became woo and he was ready to die
"so shoot me", said the echo across old coins
caught in the curve of the moving gun
Waves of freedom and white blindness
like like tubes of chattering metal giving a buzz


Thrown stones blew the wind &
nothing spoke or whispered or screamed &
there was a persistent buzz in the dome of blue space
like a train wreck
Unlocated, omnipresent and paranoid
the sound was available on you tube &
in the dark waited fangs, stingers and teeth
claws wearing the unbearable moon


Calls from the cool earth, hunger, and the  truth of water
The hand felt the rocks in their totality, a rainbow vibration
Heat, texture, mass, and endless time that never began
nails scratched nervously in the center of this giant nothing


Spears of light broke in waves
while somewhere somebody ran a vacuum
Pollution filled the world, starfish died,
and cars sat idling on granite freeways
Back in the desert, sage and rocks and junipers
flowed outward in all directions &
coyotes prepared their plans
while dirt circled in the dust of new miracles


An airplane etched a slow line miles above
with a faint rumble of life
It was the one event, the one thing passing slowly by
as the earth turned &
breathed out her silent presence
before the big open swallowed her whole
and the day dawned and the children rejoiced
and the people loved


The old woman hiding in the writer lifted up
and squatted on the rock and spit
Hands on her knees, she bounced a little
and squinted through her sunglasses
Teeth bared, she was the cartoon grin
of a bottled jaguar in heels
She saw the time and sound
in a room of her being
hollow and one


This endless story and filled with the calm
she thought of her old friend
Honed to a sharp point from days of watching
reading and learning the signs
Walking and waiting and watching the breath
in the stilled mind of it all
The pulse of life like blood
in the crack of the fire
or in a beautiful new day
when one finally knows


Monday, December 23, 2013

Thursday, December 19, 2013

far away and lost #23


I don't believe in this moment
lost and far away life is a dream
to slip away without a trace
to die in my sleep
like these bells in the fog
a sound land for a friend in my ears, always singing
leaving no tears, no residue, no waste
what you think of me doesn't matter
nothing does
I deleted the measure and account
listened to the drug of being
with frozen hands and glue and tacks
I painted it out

I looked for a long time for you
but you didn't come
that's because you are here now
in the dream of this dream
with me alone
I made you up

art is meaningless
life is meaningless
death is meaningless
everything is nothing
I don't matter
I am nobody
and I am going nowhere
now


the night is her now
the morning will come
the shit will occur
routine
and all around it is the moment I have eaten
can't chase it
but the eternal slip is worth waiting for
i have been there
in the crescent and island of the soul
by the dog and the water of love
immersion and glide I am becoming
you are like a jewel to me and I love you all
from behind the window
from behind my glass eyes
from the boat and suitcase on the desert highway
madness and necessary confession, circle in the dirt
for this spirit surrounded by the cynics of matter
in their grid of fear
from a private tower over the sea
comes a whisper on my spiral stairway
you are loved
you are loved &
the night is her now
she speaks like a kiss from death watching and waiting
invisible angel
reminding you that it is coming
someday maybe tomorrow
and perhaps it is a door
mine is




Sunday, December 15, 2013

Sunlight



"To the Universe belongs the Dancer.
He who does not dance does not know
what happens."   --Jesus. (Gnostic acts of John)

Friday, December 13, 2013

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Annotated time relay

during the west wind
he crept up to the flaming sword
with the promise we can't keep
ah, the rest of it like a bomb

a spider lingered from his dream
turning this gospel drag queen
into the lost angel of power
of love or of doom?

around the head of his velvet sunset
a dreaming night was gone
a midst the last peal of thunder
spinning overhead, rolling the dice of god

around and around
the grey old wheel is turning
to save me from their unbelief

like a beautiful woman wrapped in her swirls
in a sea of dead pills
while the spinning worlds collide
through the sound of coffee

competing for occurrence & forgotten beaches
a beautiful story being sung of a new world
trying to be born in a haze of blue picture
to still the sands from falling

trying to be born from sea-glass and flowers
trying to be born from computers and time
trying to be born in a sewer of white ashes
we play, always innocent, and search the heavens for you

around and around
the gray old wheel is dreaming
to save me from their unbelief

shining the electric church, empty snow
where all is at peace forever
empty spaces in the sound of gentleness
spaces shining and sparkling, falling heart

a whole in my heart, inside of my truck
a place where they would stop and pull over
to bury the innocent dead animal
the one with the quiet brown eyes, watching us

falling into the whole world filling with leaves
falling into the blood of Christ, garbage and need
written in a vast and lonely cloud of doom
victorious and calm alone in this room

around and around
the grey old wheel is dreaming
to save me from their unbelief



hanging above us all now with knives
wide of her angel wing heart
dropping what I can't seem to quite remember
dropping onto a fly spinning through air

whom calls these droning forgotten words
who see's the one found against the wall
with padlocks and moth eaten shirts
a thousand years ago

whom do you call for on the dome of the living
whom do you hold when the flash is right
sound upon sounds, ranting to my silver ships
ancient hair spreading your utilitarian obsolescence

around and around
the grey old wheel is dreaming
to save me from their unbelief

a wave of ocean and a dreamy ambient composition
children play at forgotten memory
unknowingly competing against the side of reason
rocking and swaying like these lost little girls, stereos pulsing

unfolding in her head
children playing on and on
falling into soft sound
falling into the theater

the theater of love
out in the hollow and black
the remembrance ending the words
softly pacing the stars in nothing holy burning bright

around and around
the grey old wheel is dreaming
to save me from their unbelief



searching the heavens for something unfading
it had to be that way
like water sparkling in western light
empty space falling into my wounded

loves and vines and desperate blood
made whole in five acts
the one remaining hanging in the sky
violins on fire and guitars gently weeping

no need to make sense now, look around
big sky holding down metal and love
singing to stars in a blazing white wind
flowers and horses and a singing kid

around and around
the grey old wheel is dreaming
to save me from their unbelief