AIN SOPH, the eternal state of being

Who gives a fuck

Fuck it
the meaningless-ness of art
the pointlessness of my life
join my manic rollercoaster
look apon the fuel for the fire
the future pyre of flame on the endless beach of nothing
burning all my stupid "art"
under the silent stars
fuck everything
fuck you
fuck off

there I said it
am I an asshole? does it matter?
is there anything for which you would die for?
oh, most certaintly, sir
I would stop the radiation
I would stop the soldiers
I would stop the rape

Have I yet begun to live? I don't really know
Is there a reason beyond my own dreams?
Am I awake or real or dead and dreaming?
Am I insane? does it matter?

Are we all lost?
The great breath breathes you while you read
and your heart pumps anyway, regardless
The birds need me
my kids need me
someday I will die. for real.
good. I happen to remember that place.
my bags are almost packed.
hey ghost, thanks for reading.
thanks for listening to the buzz of my guitar
thanks for being there always

Brutal Life

Brutal life to you I cling
sex and tooth and claw and weed
I love you all
I love you all under the wings of god
bless the broken and glorious sun
the rush and beat of her heart branch tree
inside this skin of ancient woman, ancient man

brutal and beautiful living moment
take my fear
take my fear and eat it, consume it ,change it
to petals opened for the bee and the kiss
to days of laughter and bliss
while death becomes thee

brutal human
I take all of our fear and desires
and throw it into the sky of feathers
into the skin of stars stretched across space
and I christen me with the heart of forgiveness
so I can stand empty and fill with your light

Brutal cloud of radiation
to you I call, leave us simple
to love her tomorrow and to be infinitely patient
no truth to pay, no rule you must follow
I play in the dawn with dolls
I cry over the dishes and my tears become japanese
your love is mine, your sorrow is mine
tonight the moon turns and grows closer still
rock, stone and moss
your love is mine

I Love you all